I love the way Andy folds clothes–he does it so much better than me. He often lets me fold the towels while he folds t-shirts. Speaking of laundry, for some reason I always feel so thankful when I iron Andy’s work clothes. I hope I always realize what a true blessing it is to be able to do that.
I’m realizing for a lot of things in my life right now, the only thing I can change is my thoughts about them. I’m trying to remember life isn’t all about having life figured out. I’m trying to remember that working just so you have health insurance and money to save for retirement is not a bad thing. I’m trying to embrace January-March and enjoy them and not just long for spring. I’m trying to hold on to the important things and let go of the time wasting things. I’m taking this to heart and asking myself each day what I am going to pay attention to. That one little question really puts everything in perspective.
Did anyone else put all the Christmas stuff away on the 26th a.m.? Call me a Grinch, but I can’t stand anything Christmas unless it’s Dec. 1-25. It feels great to clean out and get ready for a new year. Thinking about the new year, I really enjoyed this article on “goal” setting as I’m thinking about my monthly “goals” this year. I’m happy it is kind of how I thought about structuring this year, but will help me stay on track with what to focus on.
Life is kind of comfy right now (at least, compared to a little over a year ago and if being in seminary can be called comfy) and I’ve been thinking a lot about what that means for me. Life isn’t about just survival anymore, but is established and has a routine and I’ve realized that has opened up some time. It has caused me to think about what I’m doing now and will be doing in the future. Through conversations with Andy, friends, and this article I’ve realized it partly means I need to work on “doing the dishes” (figuratively and literally). Andy told me, “I think you have been put in a normal pace of life to work on every day [insert all my personal problems/sins] things. When life is crazy there isn’t much time to focus on [those personal problems/sins] but when life has a normal pace you then have time to work on those.” Here I was thinking I needed to go out and save the world when I have a hard time just loving my husband and the people around me every day. Being in seminary/no idea what we’ll be doing in a few years/my personality I have a hard time dreaming about things I want to do, but also during this time (of wondering what I need to be doing with my life) I finally thought of something I wanted to do and something that I can probably take with me wherever we go. It absolutely terrifies me, which I hear is how you know if a dream is any good, so hopefully if it stays around and logistics work out I’ll be able to share it someday. Right now it just feels good to finally know what I need to be doing now and maybe in the future.
It is supposed to feel like -20 today. I’m not sure if I’ve ever been in negative degree weather. We went to Trader Joe’s Saturday because we found out we needed to grab some food for something and I walked through the door and then turned back around. Unfortunately, Andy grabbed me and pulled me all through the store. I’ve never seen so many people in a grocery store. It was like people were preparing for the end. I talked to one of the workers and then found out that basically is what everyone is doing, so we decided to grab a little bit more food, too. Apparently I need a new internet weather station because the Weather Channel is not very helpful. Stay warm, friends! Have plenty of hot tea and dark chocolate! xo